I really want to do it! It’s May11th…
I have to tell you all, life has been pretty crazy these last 6 weeks. I have literally not had a moment to sit and write, and relax.
Always working, always making plans, always trying to fit more into my day than humanly possible.
But I have to tell you, it’s funny when you put something out into the world how the world returns the favor.
Last time I wrote, I mentioned worrying about my career, and how my life was panning out. Well, quite literally, my role as a real estate agent blossomed. I was asked to join a new team full time and it truly challenged me, and made me see what this role could produce.
I left behind my thoughts of worry and fear with regards to my future and money, and where I might have made a wrong turn.
Six weeks into this new position, I am at a cross roads.
I had applied for a position before I accepted this new role, at a company that I had been trying to get an interview with for over a year.
Last week, I had an interview with them, and I am suppose to be hearing back sometime this week whether or not I got the job.
Now, you may all be thinking, how great! And it is all truly great, and either way, I feel very fortunate to have options.
However, the truth of the matter is, I am beyond worried. I feel like this is my last shot at a career in corporate event planning, and if I don’t get the position, it’s a sign I should stay in real estate full time.
If I got the position, I would have to cut ties with my current position. My bosses are so amazing, and it would be such a hard situation to leave.
Another thing that is bugging me, is that I had put living in the city out of my mind, because in real estate, you should live where you work, and I currently work in the burbs…so I should stay in the burbs…
But with the spark of possibility of getting and accepting this job, I would have the opportunity to live in the city, and it makes me realize how much I crave that.
Stuck between a rock and a hard place, for sure.
And now I will stop ranting.
I do believe everything happens for a reason, but damn, I just wish I knew why!!
But enough about me, how is everyone doing??
Since turning 24, and preparing to turn 24, I have been having these mini meltdowns.
I am not at all where I want to be at 24. All the adults in my life say I’m young, well I say, I’m not that young.
I feel there is no more room for error, for still being OK with living at home.
I had a job (internship) that I simply loved at the number one PR firm in the world. They couldn’t hire me on this past August, and since October(ish) let the other intern stay as an associate.
Now, I completely love the other intern, but part of me has always wondered why her, and not me.
I know I can only control what my actions are, but sometimes I feel those are even harder to control.
My dream job is developing and producing large scale (and the occasional small) experiential marketing events.
Living in the city of Chicago has proven to be challenging in finding work similar to what I was doing.
So my mom convinced me to get my real estate license and join her as a real estate agent (which I have since Dec/Jan), however I don’t feel thrilled, excited, and eager to go into work like I once was.
It doesn’t help that being in real estate means being commission only, and getting only paid at the closing table (which as you can imagine takes a bit of time to get to when you start out).
Now here’s my question for all of you: how did you get to where you are now, and do you enjoy what you do? What advice do you have for 20somethings who are feeling stuck in their current roles?